I'm technically proficient

...despite certain attitude issues

Abby Dubenko, MD
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When I was up in OB, I would deliver a baby, then I would deliver a baby, and today, I was puked on, spit at, bit, and then I tricked a psychotic woman, and I almost killed a guy. Abby Road

Abby: Is this some kind of med student hazing thing or do you guys just hate me?
Haleh: You're younger than us, prettier than us, and skinnier than us...
Lydia: We hate you.
Abby: Thanks for the candor.
Haleh: Anytime. Such Sweet Sorrow

Is this fun for you? Or is it like an addiction? Do you wake up in the morning thinking, "How am I gonna screw Abby today?" to Richard in Homecoming

You know, when I saw you seizing on that table, I thought, 'This is it. This is it. This is how it's all gonna end. I am going to watch my mother die.' And I still might not be wrong about that. It could still end that way. And there's not one thing I can do about it. But I'll show up. Because you will always have that power over me. I will show up and I will try to stop it. I love you, Mom. Fear of Commitment

That's all there is, is risk. You just have to take a chance and leap into life. Otherwise, sweetheart, you're going to miss out on all the great things. Abby, you deserve all the great things. Maggie, in Where the Heart Is

We've all cried. Sometimes it's the only thing you can do. If I Should Fall From Grace

Oh, wake up Joyce! This is it. This is your chance to get away, right now! It doesn't matter how wonderful he can be sometimes. If you go back to him now you're only telling him that it is okay to do this to you and it's not okay! It's not okay. A Simple Twist of Fate

Carter: I thought TV was a vast wasteland.
Abby: Oh, I'm sorry. I meant to watch 'La Boheme' on PBS last night but I had to go the symphony. Secrets and Lies

I'm technically proficient, despite certain attitude issues. Walk Like a Man

First rule of girls club is, you don't talk about girls club. Walk Like a Man

Abby: Do you know when she would leave us, she used to do it when we were sleeping? Did I ever tell you that? So it became part of our morning routine, we would get up, go pee, check and see if Mom had abandoned us. And the mornings that she was gone, I was left with my little brother, this skinny little kid, who never ever did anything wrong, and was good and beautiful and sweet, and I would have to tell him that everything was gonna be okay.
Carter: What would he say?
Abby: You're a liar. Next of Kin

Every once in a while you'll have a really perfect cigarette, you know? Everything about it is perfect, the taste, the moment. Of course, 99% of the time it tastes like crap. Next of Kin

Welcome to County, Dr. Lockhart. Weaver, in One For the Road

I've processed all of my feelings of anger, shame, and guilt in an emotionally safe environment. I've addressed the urge to 'use' alcohol. Oh, and I've consulted both a shaman and a guru, so really, I'm all good. Only Connect

In what possible universe would I say, "Let's polka"? Just As I Am

Woman: If you're a doctor, I want a second opinion.
Neela: Okay. Dr. Lockhart, would you care to give a second opinion?
Abby: Sure. Your ankle may be broken, and you're a bitch. Nobody's Baby

And that’s the most important thing isn’t it? He was wrong and you were right. And while you were arguing about it, the little girl died. Human Shield

God, she was ten years old, Luka. And he had her for months and I just can’t stop thinking about what she must have gone through and I can’t stop thinking about how afraid she must have been and I can’t stop thinking about why we couldn’t save her and I just...I... Human Shield

You know, thank God the human species has a 9-month gestation period. Can you imagine if we were rats, and I was going to pump this thing out in like 6 weeks? Isn't that scary? Spilt Decisions

Abby: You know, I'm getting really sick of this. Why does female plus tough have to equal bitch around here?
Albright: You know, Abby, I don't need you to defend me. Thank you very much. I don't mind that guys think I'm a bitch. I kinda like it. At least they respect me.
Abby: Uh huh. So, if they don't think I'm a bitch...Does that mean they don't respect me?
Albright: Got a hot appy waiting to be seen.
Abby: Bitch. Quintessence of Dust

Oh, Morris, I swear to God, if you ever, ever refer to me as someone else's woman ever again, I will slap you silly with this hole punch! Quintessence of Dust

They say they usually look more like the father in the beginning. It's nature's way of making sure Daddy doesn't get all insecure and club us to death. Somebody to Love

Morris: Breastfeeding is a beautiful, natural thing. Nothing to be ashamed of...
Abby: You're not sneaking a peek at my tits, Morris. Somebody to Love

Well, I do know that if you're dressing your kids up like they're some sort of designer accessory you're already headed for problems. But don't worry, I work in the ER - so I'll be there to take care of them when they come in pregnant at fourteen with a drug overdose. Parenthood

[singing]If I go there will be trouble...If I stay there will be double...This indecision's bugging me...If you don't want me set me free...Exactly whom I'm supposed to be...Don't you know what clothes even fit me... Ames v. Kovac

Crenshaw is such a little prick. And you know what? I bet I could take him, too. Actually, I definitely think I could take him. And you could kick his ass. Jigsaw

You know, nine years ago, I had...My marriage was over, my mother was in a mental institution for the seventh, or tenth time, I don’t know. And I drank, a lot...a lot. And I had reached this - you know what, I...One morning I woke up in this apartment and I had no idea how I got there, next to some guy I didn’t even remember meeting, and he was going through my stuff, looking for money so he and his buddy could get a fix. So I ran out of there and I went downstairs and I tried to get a cab but I had no idea where I was and it was five o’clock in the morning and there were no cars on the street so I just...I just sat down on a stoop and I just...I waited for something to happen. And at that moment, I’m telling you, I knew, I mean, I was positive that happiness was something I was never going to find. I’m just trying to tell you that things can change, they can get better...even if you don’t see it, they can. Murmurs of the Heart

Abby: Get some balls.
Morris: I've got balls!
Abby: Well, they're no good unless you use them. Dying Is Easy...


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As played here, Abby is in an adult marriage relationship. As such, her journal will at times contain material that would be rated NC-17. Such threads will *not* be labeled with warnings - if you are under legal age or are offended by such material, read her journal at your own risk.

Spoiler alert: There may be spoilers for upcoming episodes of ER in this journal. You have been warned. You will not be warned again.
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